Moving

Moving down here has honestly been one of the hardest things I have done. Besides loosing my dad moving 1000 plus miles away is a lot. I knew things wouldn’t be the same, I didn’t think they were going to be. I went into the journey with a clear mind and relaxing heart. Despite prior issues I have grown into a wonderful person and am still evolving. See the hardest part about this all was him. The fact that I’m here without him. Everyday I try and wake up with a positive mindset and strive to continue his grace and beauty in the world. I want to just talk to him once more and tell him I am sorry and miss him and how much I truly appreciated him. Honestly without him in my life I would not be me. Yes it sucks and yes it’s said but at the end of the day we all make a choice. Everyone has bad days first of all. But are you the type of person who is going to let thoes bad days define you or are you going to realize what you should and shouldn’t spend your time on and how your feelings attribute to your well being. It’s all about self love and discovery. My heart may never be fixed but I know deep down he’s with me and to know that and hold that in my heart is the best I can get for now. So I guess what I am trying to say is don’t give up even when things are hard. Healing takes time, and that’s totally fine. Love yourself and set the negativity free. The hatred will only hurt you in the end. I just don’t have room in my heart for that anymore that’s all.