Growing up was not always easy but I am blessed to have such amazing parents that provided me with a once in a lifetime opportunities. At the young age of six my parents started having problems. I remember hearing them scream- IYou never know what type of things someone has going on. You don’t know the hurt they feel. Check in on them. Talk to them. Someone with depression wont speak out, they hide behind a “I’m fine I promise” but they are not. It is ok to not be okay.No one can truly see how much a person is hurting unless they ask. We all need to stick together. Don’t tear people down based on how sad they are. One of the worst feeling is loneliness. Don’t tell people they are worthless or pathetic. How would you feel if someone told you that. Instead of saying someone needs help, HELP THEM. Talk them down off the ledge, show them how much they are worth.Trust me it’s not that hard to be a decent human. Don’t hurt the broken thinking they can take it. Show them you care, be the person that keeps them going. I can tell you one thing, I promise that one day things will work out if we build each other up. Nothing comes out of hate or pettiness. No one is perfect, be the change. Save them from their pain. Pay attention, someone who is hurting will never tell you. You won’t know until they are really gone. You are worth the world angel, things get better with time.mat each other and my dad moving into my aunts for a little. I remember the first time meeting john and the first time he spent the night. I was full of anger and confusion, I often wondered if I was the problem in my parents’ relationship. Over time I accepted john and learned to love him. My dad however had karen, liz and kathee. Karen was the first but not the worst. I still have vivid memories of her telling my dad in front of me that he spends too much time with me when I get in town. This was the first time I ever felt like I was not good enough. My dad lucky was not blinded by her unsympathetic ways. He left her and two year later met liz. Liz was not only the best thing to happen to me during my parents divorce but she continues to stay in touch with me to make sure I am okay. Liz is the type of girl that would give you the world even if she barely knew you. I quickly fell in love with her, she made me happy again and made me forget all the hardships I was dealing with in my life. I loved every minute of our time together and wish I could see her again. Her dad got ill and passed away, leaving his entire business in her name, she had to move to spain and june of 2016 was the last time that I saw her. I am so grateful to have had such a great support system in that time. Here we go, what everyone has been waiting for … Kathee. From the very start she has been crazy and manipulative. The first time I met her she interrupted my dad to tell me they were buying a house together not even knowing each other for a year. She would manipulate my dad in a way to make him forget me when I was there and neglect me leaving me for days at a time with no text or anything. She once told me that I could never come between MY DAD and I. She made me feel my worst, I fell into a depression and felt like I had no power. My relationship with my dad became distant and whenever I would say a thing she would send me paragraphs going off on me explaining to me why I was wrong and not worth their time. She made me feel like I was nothing. I wanted nothing but sleep, my mom was worried sick and I started to doubt myself. Lucky my mom cares about me a lot and a few months passed and she finally noticed my arms. The next day I called her crying at school that I couldn’t do it and I needed to sleep, she then picked me up and just let me talk. I got the help I needed and I was back on track. I still did not talk to him much then it happened. He was dying and had a maximum of 2 years left on this earth. He has stage four kidney cancer that had spread to his lungs, kidney, lymph nodes and the bones in his spine. I can not fathom life without him but I regret so much. I mean I ignored him, no the only thing I can do is pray and stay strong for him.
Balanced Butterfly 